Hi, I’m Lindsay, and I’m new here. New to blogging, new to Mommy Connections, and new to this crazy rollercoaster of a ride called motherhood. I’m from Regina, Saskatchewan and I share my life with my husband Jordan, little dog Rascal, and of course my mini dictator of a boss, our daughter, Hartley Dawn. Mom life can be hard, exhausting, frustrating, amazing, awe inspiring and as I’m finding out, incredibly empowering! Join me as I share my open and honest experiences and tips (that worked for us!) as I fumble my way through this motherhood journey!
I don’t know why this month feels like such a big milestone. It’s not a particularly long period of time, in the grand scheme of things 6 months is relatively short. Maybe it’s because the last 6 months have been the busiest, most tired and most amazing 6 months of my life. Your birth, bringing you home, your first few days, each milestone you’ve hit…6 months of memories, flashing before my very eyes.
I knew that having you would be a different kind of love, but I didn’t know it would be quite like this.
Every single day you amaze me. The movement of your hands, the way you discover and explore your world with them and the wonder on your face as you watch your fingers stretch and move. I lose track of time just watching you.
You make me so proud. The smallest achievements, things that we as adults take for granted you are learning and doing for the first time. You are the inspiration for ‘If at first you don’t succeed,’ and while some of your achievements make my life a little harder, I hope you know I am and will always be proud of everything that you can accomplish.
You are so beautiful. I can’t stop touching your smooth skin, or gazing into those big blue eyes or kissing those pink round cheeks. You are like sugar. Sweet and irresistible to me. If we were in the wild I’m sure I would have eaten you by now, but in reality I hope I can help build your confidence to always see yourself the way I see you.
You can make me smile like almost no one else can (though your daddy is definitely a contender). Silly looks, discovering your tongue, confused expressions, imitations of the rock, snuggling into my neck, there is no limit to the ways that you bring me joy. Even in the dead of night, a sweet, sad cry can bring a smile to my face. The smile lines that you will inevitably cause me will be more than worth it.
I love sharing things with you. I love going through all of our firsts together. I love taking you with me everywhere I go and just spending time together. Mundane tasks become opportunities for you to see and learn about the world and it is so exciting to show you the blue in the sky and the changing colours of the leaves, and the wonders that are hidden in grocery store shelves.
I feel so lucky to have you. Not every woman who wants to be a mom is granted that gift. Some have to try significantly harder than we did, some experience loss, and heartache to get their babies. And not a day goes by that I don’t feel so incredibly lucky to have my sweet baby in my arms.
You make me excited for the future and long for the past. As each day passes and you grow and change, I’m conflicted and torn between wanting time to speed up so we can do even more exciting things together, and wishing we could turn back the dial. You were so tiny, such a short time ago, and each time I put away an article of clothing that you will never fit into again, I’m reminded how fast time truly goes.
I love watching you with your grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins. You are so loved. You have so many people in your life who would do anything for you, and I can’t wait to see your relationships grow. They will teach you so much about life, and their wisdom will be instrumental to the person you will become. I hope that you always cherish them as they cherish you.
Watching your daddy take care of you makes my heart so incredibly happy. He is so patient, loving and caring with you. I love him more for the way that he loves you.
And lastly, thank you. Thank you for being patient with me as I fumble through this unfamiliar territory. Thank you for teaching me perseverance and a whole new world of love. You are truly the gift that keeps on giving, the apple of my eye and everything I could have wished for. I love you so much.