This is 30 – Mommy Blogger

My name is Christina Hnatiuk. I am a mom of one little boy, Marshall. I am married to a wonderful man, we will have been together for 6 years, married for 3. I work full time in Human Resources and part time as a Ukrainian dance instructor. I love to try new things, especially new restaurants and food. In my free time, which is hardly ever, I love to bake, specializing in cheesecakes. I am looking forward to sharing my adventures in life with everyone!

In December of 2018 I turned 30.  How did this happen, I just celebrated my 20th birthday. In the words of Joey Tribiani “WHY, GOD, WHY? WE HAD A DEAL! LET THE OTHERS GROW OLD, NOT ME!!” But seriously I was so concerned about turning 30, it gave me severe anxiety.  Some of you will read this and think why, its 30, what’s the big deal. I’m sure for most its no big deal, but for me it made me feel unfinished. Don’t get me wrong I have a great life.  I have a wonderful husband, the best two year old, the sweetest dog, and the best friend and family I could ask for, but I still felt like I hadn’t done enough.

Travel. One of the things that bothered me the most is my travel bucket list. There was all these places I wanted to see, and through my twenties I was like, “I have all the time in the world…” Well I blinked, turned 30 and feel like I haven’t seen enough parts of the world. Being realistic here, I have travelled a lot. I’ve seen a lot of Western Europe, travelled to Ukraine, been on a Caribbean cruise, visited to Australia, and multiple trips to both Disneyland and Disney world. And that’s not everywhere; from 2009 to 2015 I went on some kind of trip every year, sometimes twice a year. That a lot of travelling. Looking at it this way I realized how lucky I am! Sure I haven’t been to Ireland yet, but I have seen the Sydney Opera House, the Eiffel Tower and been to the top of the Empire State Building, and that’s more than a lot have seen by 30.

Money. Money makes the world go round, but is also the root of all evil… or something like that. When I graduated high school I thought, I’ll go to university, I’ll get a great paying job, I’ll buy a car, a house, vacation every year, it will be the best. Reality check, I’m 30 with a student loan, living in a town house, and budgeting every penny I have to bills, gas and groceries. I see other 30 year olds with tons of money, with houses and cars, why don’t I have that. Well for starters I got an education, I spent pretty much all of my twenties travelling and I have a family. Pretty much I’m the luckiest person alive, even though I don’t have money.

Time. Time is a funny thing. When you want it to go by fast, it feels like it takes forever, when you want it to slow down; it speeds by in the blink of an eye. Up until my 29th birthday I thought I had all the time in the world. Blink, now I’m 30 and I feel like deaths knocking on my door. There is so much I want to do, but now it feels like I have no time to do it! But then the other day I was hanging out with my sweet baby boy and he out of nowhere gave me big hug and told me he loved me. I thought to myself, when did he grow up, yesterday he was this little blob who occasionally opened his eyes and now he is expressing himself, showing emotion, and never shuts up! It made me realize I was worrying so much about all the time I didn’t have I was missing out on the time I do have, watching my little boy grow up into this real life person.

I’m still filled with anxiety about turning 30 but now it’s more of an excited feeling. I’m excited to see what the next 10 years bring, especially if they are going to be anything like the last 10! The experiences won’t be the same, instead of jetting off to some foreign country, I’ll get to see my little boy jet off to his first day of school, or instead of having a fancy house or all the money, I’ll have experiences and memories made with my family! I look forward to possibly growing our family, growing old and lets be honest, growing up! If this is 30, I am ready!

“Wrinkles merely mark where smiles have been.” – Mark Twain



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