Hey everyone! My name is Kelsey, and I’m a first time mama to a healthy and handsome boy, Atlas. Atlas is almost four months old, and this has been the best journey I’ve been on! When I’m not living it up mat leave style, I’m a social worker for Child & Family Programs, working in Child Protection. My fiancé (soon to be husband in 4 months-whoop whoop!) works away during the week as an Electrician. Although my weeks can be long not having Mike here, my support system is incredible and our family time on the weekends is amazing! I love to spend time at the lake with family, go for walks by the river, craft/scrapbook and enjoy all of the “firsts” for Atlas. I’m looking forward to more journaling/blogging throughout the new year!
In 2015, I had a breast reduction and was told that one of the risks involved was potential struggles with breastfeeding. I weighed out all of the pros/cons and this reduction was something that was necessary for me.
Prior to the birth of my son, I fully accepted the fact that I may not be able to breastfeed, and I was okay with that. I prepared myself. I stocked up on formula & bottles as well as nursing gear in case I was able to breastfeed.
After my boy was born, I was surprised that I was producing enough milk to feed him. I was elated, and felt very hopeful for my breastfeeding journey. Over the next few weeks, I spent hours a day meeting with lactation consultants, trying to increase my milk supply, syringe feeding with breast, you name it. I was physically and emotionally exhausted and I remember feeling so defeated when I had to start supplementing with formula.
After meeting with my doctor, we determined that my milk ducts were too damaged from the surgery, and my son wasn’t getting enough milk. I started supplementing with formula, and before long it became too hard to produce any milk. He was becoming sick from my milk, as he was used to having more formula than breast milk.
Looking back now, I wish I hadn’t been so hard on myself. I can’t help but feel like I missed some precious moments with my son in the beginning because I was so focused on breast feeding him. As long as he’s fed, who cares how?! That saying is easier said than done. It’s an emotional roller coaster.
As moms, whatever we choose we need to stand by it. Whatever is best for you & your family is what you should do. Stand by it and be confident in your choice.